In the month since Halsey first announced her pregnancy, the pop star has been getting some uncool feedback (as if any pregnant woman requires feedback on her reproductive choices) questioning whether her pregnancy was planned or “an accident.” The 26-year-old, who has been very open about her endometriosis and the struggles with fertility that result for many women who suffer from the condition, did not take the harassment lightly, using her Instagram as a platform to clap back at the people questioning the intentionality of her pregnancy.
"Why is it ok to speculate and pass judgement about fertility and conception [sic]?" she wrote on Instagram Stories over a grey background. "My pregnancy was 100% planned, and I tried very hard for this bb. But I would be just as happy even if it were another way.”
In 2016, Halsey told Rolling Stone about a miscarriage she’d suffered before a show and the way she blamed herself for it. "It's the angriest performance that I've ever done in my life," she said, explaining that she’d wanted "to be a mom more than I want to be a pop star, more than I want to be anything in the world.” Halsey previously used Instagram to break the news about the fact that she and partner Alev Aydin were expecting, posting a joyful series of photos of herself in late January wearing jeans and a rainbow crocheted bikini top.
In another post, she shared that she'd “been thinking lots about my body. it’s strange to watch yourself change so quickly. I thought pregnancy would give me very strong, binary feelings about ‘womanhood’ but truly it has leveled my perception of gender entirely. My sensitivity to my body has made me hyper aware of my humanness and that’s all,” she explained. “Doing a remarkable thing. And it’s grand. I hope the feeling lasts.”
For Halsey, pregnancy is an experience she once believed she wouldn’t be able to have. In the liner notes for her album, Manic, she wrote, "I've been really open about my struggles with reproductive health, about wanting to freeze my eggs and having endometriosis and things like that. For a long time, I didn't think that having a family was something I was going to be able to do, and it's very, very important to me," she told fans (via People).
"Then one day my OB-GYN tells me it's looking like I maybe can, and I was so moved. It felt like this ascension into a different kind of womanhood. All of a sudden, everything is different. I'm not going to go tour myself to death because I have nothing else to do and I'm overcompensating for not being able to have this other thing that I really want. Now, I have a choice. I've never had a choice before."
Touring herself “to death” aside, Halsey told fans on Twitter that she’d be out performing right now (at a measured pace, we assume) if we weren’t living through a global pandemic.
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