Eilish has some thoughts on her wide-ranging appeal.“Maybe people see me as a rule-breaker because they themselves feel like they have to follow rules, and here I am not doing it,” Eilish told Vogue. “That’s great, if I can make someone feel more free to do what they actually want to do instead of what they are expected to do. But for me, I never realized that I was expected to do anything. I guess that’s what is actually going on—that I never knew there was a thing I had to follow. Nobody told me that s**t, so I did what I wanted.”[video_embed id='1876655']RELATED: Billie Eilish pens the new 'Bond' theme[/video_embed]Growing up in a loving and supportive household with her parents and BFF brother Finneas, who is also her producing and writing partner, Eilish says her homeschool surroundings enabled her to flourish. “I’m so glad I didn’t go to school, because if I had, I would never have the life I have now. [Los Angeles Children’s] Chorus was my favorite thing in the world,” she said, who added that she didn’t make the cut for the chamber singers’ group at 13, a devastating blow at the time.“It was really emotional for me. I knew that if I left, everybody would form new friendships without me. When I think back to me crying about it then, I was crying about the future and what I thought would be, and you know what? I was totally right. You can’t stop people from moving on when they have to. When you go on a trip, you can’t expect people to sit still until you get back.”
Eilish has undoubtedly become the voice of her generation, one that has grown up with an understanding that depression and anxiety are valid mental health issues. Eilish has focused on darker times in their music, including toxic friendships and poor body image.“I just hated my body. I would have done anything to be in a different one,” said Billie. “I really wanted to be a model, really bad, and I was chubby and short. I developed really early. I had boobs at nine. I got my period at 11. So my body was going faster than my brain. It’s funny, because when you’re a little kid, you don’t think of your body at all. And all of a sudden, you look down and you’re, like, whoa. What can I do to make this go away?”As her star continues to rise, Eilish said she’s now able to understand the fame monster that threatened the careers of some of her favourite artists. The point is eerily highlighted when a fruit basket arrives from a follower at her doorstep mid-interview. “As a fan growing up, I was always like, 'What the f*** is wrong with them?' But the bigger I get, the more I’m like, Oh, my God, of course they had to do that. In my dark places I’ve worried that I was going to become the stereotype that everybody thinks every young artist becomes, because how can they not?”Though she's been open about pats self-injurious behaviour and struggles with depression Billie reveals she’s now in a more positive mental and emotional space. “When people ask me what I’d say to somebody looking for advice on mental health, the only thing I can say is patience. I had patience with myself. I didn’t take that last step. I waited. Things fade.”[video_embed id='1889708']You’ll never guess which talk show host surprised Meghan Trainor on ‘Carpool Karaoke’[/video_embed]View this post on Instagram
@billieeilish is our March cover star! For this issue, Vogue commissioned three unique covers—all starring @billieeilish—from three different photographers. Tap the link in our bio for the full profile. Photographed by @hassanhajjaj_larache, styled by @alex_jordan_harrington, written by @robertjhaskell, Vogue, March 2020.