Jessie J reveals recent miscarriage: ‘It’s the loneliest feeling in the world’

'I'm still in shock, the sadness is overwhelming. But I know I am strong, and I know I will be okay.'
November 25, 2021 10:31 a.m. EST
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Warning: this article contains details which may be distressing to some.

British songstress Jessie J is bravely opening up in a new raw and emotional Instagram post. Sharing a selfie where she's holding a positive at-home pregnancy test, the "Price Tag" singer revealed she suffered a miscarriage the day prior.

“Yesterday morning I was laughing with a friend saying 'seriously though how am I going to get through my gig in LA tomorrow night without telling the whole audience I am pregnant.' By yesterday afternoon I was dreading the thought of getting through the gig without breaking down," the singer began the caption, posted Wednesday. 

Then she shared that after a third scan, she was told she'd miscarried. ". . . there was no longer a heartbeat 💔

She continued, "This morning. I feel like I have no control of my emotions. I may regret posting this. I may not. I actually don't know. What I do know is that I want to sing tonight. Not because I'm avoiding the grief or the process, but because I know singing tonight will help me."

She admitted that while some might think she should have cancelled her planned performance, she reflected on why she started singing in the first place and decided to show up.

"[I]n this moment I have clarity on one thing. I started singing when I was young for joy, to fill my soul and self love therapy, that hasn't ever changed and I have to process this my way."

Jessie J, whose legal name is Jessica Ellen Cornish, then revealed the brave choice she made to become a mother on her own and what that journey has been like for her.  

"I decided to have a baby on my own. Because it’s all I’ve ever wanted and life is short. To get pregnant was a miracle in itself and an experience I will never forget and I know I will have again. I'm still in shock, the sadness is overwhelming. But I know I am strong, and I know I will be ok," she added.

Recognizing the power of her words and her ability to reach other people who have experienced pregnancy loss going through the same experience, Jessie wrote that she felt connected while also admittting, "it's the loneliest feeling in the world."

She then ended the heartbreaking post by addressing the audience she would have that night, saying she might "crack less jokes but my heart will be in the room. 🤍."

She performed Wednesday night at The Hotel Cafe in Los Angeles.

In a second slide on her Instagram post, Jessie shared a quote from Australian poet Şeyda Noir which reads, "Sometimes love won't be enough to make it work, and that's ok. It doesn't mean that you've failed."

The comment section of her post is filled with an outpouring of love from fellow celebrities and fans alike, with comments from singer JoJo, Tamar Braxton, and fellow British popstar Paloma Faith, who revealed her own miscarriage experience, writing, "Jessie you are 100% doing the right thing. I had a miscarriage on a film set where I was filming and I just kept filming. You get your joy from singing and you need your joy more than ever. You will and should have a baby. Women are amazing!"

Throughout social media, the words of encouragement, support, and grief poured in.

Jessie J has been very open in the past about her fertility struggles and how she has tackled personal obstacles to motherhood head-on. In an interview with BBC News in 2019, she revealed she was diagnosed with adenomyosis five years prior. 

Adenomyosis is a condition where the tissue that normally lines the womb starts to grow within the muscular wall and is linked to an increased risk of miscarriage and premature birth. She said at the time doctors told her it was unlikely she'd ever be able to conceive naturally, and so, in an attempt to defy the odds, Jessie J changed her diet and lifestyle.

"There was a song on my album called 'Four Letter Word,' which is about the day I found out about my fertility issues," she explained at the time. "I wrote that song in deep, deep sadness. And on tour, I discovered that that song had touched so many people. And actually, when I sang, it gave me joy. And the pain I had to go through and the healing that I had to go through was personal."

The four-letter word in the song's title refers to "baby".

That same year, she told the Heart Breakfast podcast, "I was told I can’t have children, but I don’t believe it. I believe in miracles. I haven’t given up. … Over the last four years, I’ve changed my diet. I changed the way I live, I’ve done a lot of self-work. I am still in the process of it."


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